I’ve been thinking about whether or not I’d want to write a blog post for this month and I guess since I’m alone sitting at a bar on my second glass of wine. Why not?
It’s not that I didn’t want to put anything out this month. I just wasn’t clear on what I’d want to say. But today as I was walking downtown I thought about something that’s been going through my mind a lot lately…
Meaning I can do what I want. (As long as I keep it holy of course.!)
But I mean honestly, as black people our definition of being “grown” is pretty much paying your own bills, having your own place, and your own car. Which I do. Granted my bills my don’t always get paid on time but them things get paid!
As I was saying, I’m grown. Technically.
The other day my mom casually slipped in over the phone: “Yeah so when are you gonna find a man?” And I said, “Guuuurl it’s slim pickings round here!” Which is very true. I’ve been single for going on 3 years now. 3 whole years since the guy I was engaged to left me for another girl. What’s amazing is that hurt that I was left with stung and made me so angry. I wasn’t sad but I was upset more than anything. One of the songs that was sung at church today was “You are my Healer” and I thought how convenient? Sometimes we go through a pain that at the time we think we could never get through but with the right prayers and with time we can get through it all. God is our healer and He prepares a way for us in the presence of our enemies. When we broke up I stayed in the same city as him. I was afraid I’d run in to him or his new gf. But I had to learn not to be afraid. I made myself better. I worked hard and without going through what I went through I wouldn’t be where I am today.
God is just so amazing y’all!
I’ve been full time at a job that I absolutely love working in ministry with some amazing people and although I haven’t met the right person yet I know God is going to deliver when the time is right. Until then he’s got me in an amazing church surrounded by some great people. I honestly have nothing to complain about and even though I still have times where I ask God “Do you even have a man for me?” I remember that all of that isn’t even important. What’s important is that I’m happy, I’m healthy, and I’m LIVING!
If you ever stop and wonder if your life is really going somewhere just remember that God is taking you places that you can’t even imagine if you just keep your faith in Him. Run the race and know that God has you. Not the universe, but the CREATOR OF THE UNIVERSE! Yes, our god who created the stars in the sky to the tiny shrimps in the sea saw it fit to create a person like you in all His glory and splendor! Now I’m not trying to sound too Sunday schoolish but it’s true! I would not have been able to get through all the hurt I’ve been through if it wasn’t for my Lord and Savior.
So I leave you with this, if you’re reading this post right now get to know Jesus. And I’m not talking about that number 45, two Corinthians, textbook, white jesus. I’m talking about the brown skinned, Jewish, fishers of the sea, woman at the well associating Jesus.
Now this is my one and only post for the month August. As always I want my content to be genuine and honestly I don’t have anything else to say. So I’ll see y’all in September. And keep sending your questions and comments. Also I haven’t forgotten about my people who’ve given me suggestions for content. I got y’all!
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