Power Made Perfect

If you had told me two months ago that I would be launching a new blog amidst a global pandemic I probably would not have believed you.

Yet, here we are.

The past two weeks have been crazy. All work related. Apparently people who have chronic diseases like Diabetes and high blood pressure still need medications. Who knew! However, I am very grateful to be working and be able to say that I still have a job whereas many others can not at the moment.

but man has it been hard…

As I travel from pharmacy to pharmacy filling and helping out my pharmacists I noticed I’ve had to check my patience a number of times. I had to remind myself that many people are scared myself included. I am not happy with where things are but at the end of the day I know that God is in control. He has really been the source of all my peace these past two weeks.

I’m not exactly sure where this post is headed but I’m sure we’ll end up somewhere. My point is, things are crazy right now. We are in a state of uncertainty but I find comfort in knowing that my faith in God is strong. I know that there will be an end to all of this and that when it comes I won’t take for granted the moments I get to laugh with my friends, hug those I love tightly, and know that in the midst of chaos God will strengthen me just as He has done in the past.

⁹ But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. ¹⁰ That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.  

II Corinthians 12:9-10

The other day I came home and thought to myself, “God after this you can send me a man because this is too much!” But really, He can go ahead and send my man after this because I think I need someone else to care for ME for just ONCE in exchange for all the other people I’ve stepped in to help.

I think all the Lysol and Cavicide has gone to my head.

Nonetheless, I look forward to being able to take the next few days off and spend some much needed time with God. Him and I have some conversations we need to finish. My prayer is that for those of you who may be reading this and struggling with fear and anxiety that it may be surrendered to God. Let Him guide you and be your source of peace.

Remember to rest, wash your hands, and continue to boost your immune systems with as much Vitamin C and D as you can.

Until next time,

Angelica

I will not be shaken

A few weeks, maybe months ago now, the enemy paid me a visit in the early morning. He came just after I had started having negative thoughts about myself after not being able to sleep. You see, after gaining a few extra pounds in 2019 I began to look at myself differently. I thought of myself as ugly sometimes. I didn’t see how anyone would want me. I tried to see myself as someone else and I was almost repulsed at what I saw. After doing that he grabbed a hold of me and told me that I wasn’t worthy. That God couldn’t save me. I mouthed Jesus’ name as best I could and after what seemed like the longest 10 seconds of my life he drifted off across my ceiling.

I worried about sleeping at night the next day but I knew that God didn’t want me to be afraid. The devil has no power over me. I think back to that night and about what it may have meant. Why he would even think to come to me of all people. I’m not a prophet, one to speak in tongues or even someone who can bring a whirlwind of the Holy Spirit into the room. I’m just a girl that trusts God.

That was enough to get him to try me.

I’ve been obedient to God in ways that seem unattainable to some. God knows that I can’t be easily shaken. In a way I like to believe that he challenged me kind of like how God allowed him to torment Job. In this case, I wasn’t going to let him win either. I knew the power that God had over my life and I knew anything the enemy told me wasn’t true. After the past week I’ve come to realize just how much God is working in my life. I stopped telling myself that I wasn’t pretty enough or even happy enough. My pastor talks about “I am” statements and how to be mindful of what you say that comes after your “I am…”. In my case, I tell myself that I am whole and I have joy in my life not matter who enters or leaves.

“In peace I will both lie down and sleep; for you alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety.”

Psalms 4:8 ESV

 

Blessings,

Angelica